I am waiting

I am waiting......
Its been a year that i havent seen you,
I dont know what happend but now this love doesnt seem true,
I thought the miles between us would never matter at all,
But thats the only reason for our indifference afterall,
I crave for your touch, your kiss,
You dont know how that togetherness i really miss,
Everyone said that we wont last long,
It didnt seem like that coz we sailed like a song,
This wait will make me insane,
The separation, i can no longer bear this pain,
Why dont you come to me soon?
Why always your promises are untrue?
Why dont you just take me with you?
I want to stay forever in your arms holding you...
Every whistle every horn makes me run to the door,
In a hope that you'll be standing there someday for sure,
I dont want to wake up as my dreams are the only place where you are with me,
Atleast for those few moments i could be in content and peace,
Even These raindrops dont make your melt,
I thought they could tell you about the tears i felt,
Well there's nothing much to say,
I think we have to live forever this way,
I am standing here Azar,
waiting for your footprints,
I love you and will always ,
No matter how muchThis distance will make us apart
I will never leave your side and thats a promise by heart...

Home sweet home

Home sweet home...
Well right now i am going back to my hostel from home, and i cant help but cry!!(its kinda usual thing for me now) i am missing everyone so much!!
When i first went to hostel, it was a mixed feeling, excitement, nervousness, freedom, insecurity, so on and so forth.. I thought living far from parents would be a cool thing to brag about..
You could do anything you want to without seeking permission from anyone!! Well, it was a big deal for me atleast as my dad's a lil strict on some issues...
But soon the so called ' i want to live alone' stigma got over, and the uncountable sweet memories that i spent at home made me so nostalgic!!
The food which i loathed so much at home, now i craved to have it,
I miss my mum's 101 meaningless nicknames for me, her soft pretentious anger, abrupt hugs;
Dad's scoldings, our days out, well sometimes his cooking too!( you should cook more often dad!) , he doesnt talk to me much on the phone, but i know he misses me too..
My brothers fights with me, when we were young we used to watch wwe together and he tried all the painful moves on me, and i took revenge by not sharing my maggi with him, all the cartoons watched together, we even acted like some characters many times( saurav's be superman, making mum's nighties his crape, and i be wonderwoman, trying on the petticoat, and hanging from the ceiling all day!), saving half a candy for him, his unpredictable favours( sometimes he gets me glass of water without making any faces, and i am very thankful for that) , our video games played together, now he even lets me wear his tees!! ( earlier i've got a handful of smacks from him for that) , his unsaid caring..., i miss all of them, earlier i couldnt stand me for more than a min but now i want to spend the whole day playing urban reign with him!!
Dad used to let saurav and me roll on his chest the whole sunday, we danced and sung and even slept on him sometime, our car rides...
No one can replace the beautiful memories you have with your family, we keep on weighing our mothers love With anyone thats worth it, but her's never the less,
Now i get excited when i board the bus from hostel to home, the pleasure to meet everyone after so much of wait is worth all the separation...

Girl, are you safe?
You live in a country where women gets raped,
Where attrocities of men, have never lessen.
They've grown to be worst than animals,
Just born to be criminals.
Where women beaten by rod is thrown in public, 
NAKED..
to see the show, people gather
They could've covered her a bit, but they just didn't bother..
Here people always question what you wear,
They say its the reason why they come near,
People always find reasons to get you blamed,
Its very hurtful and a serious shame..
Is this the country you live in?
Where equality never fits in!
People live everyday in fear from these pest,
As there daughters could always be NEXT!

WHY DO YOU LOOK AT ME THAT WAY?

Why do you look at me that way?
Am I that beautiful, I can't say,
Your eyes pierce me making me blush,
You never come near me and let me feel your essence
But you just always walk past staring me in a hush,
There's some magic in those eyes as I'm flaunted by there presence,
Why don't you say something, I know these brown eyes say it all,
They are the only reason that make me fall,
Just want to glare in those eyes and on arms lay,
I wish that you'll come up to me and be a man someday,
You can't live without me I'm waiting for you to say,
Don't be scared, in my heart forever you'll stay,
Because,
I love it when you look at me that way...

MILES AWAY

                                   MILES AWAY

I lie down with a wish that may,

Come true sometime someday.

To feel my heart,

That was torn apart

The day you went away.

Get back to me,

As soon as you please.

I cant no longer stay,

Just lessen the difference I’m waiting,

MILES AWAY….

I miss the old moments we spent,

The happiness we shared,

The sorrows we lend.

The kisses we gifted,

The shoulders we shifted

The singing, the dancing, screaming,

The shouting..

I remember the silent blush,

Untold tears, all the heart crush..

Taking your name, makes me all happy and gay,

Come back to me all the way,

I want you to be with me,

Don’t go back here in my soul, forever you stay…

Lessen the difference, I’m waiting…

MILES AWAY…

DREAM

                              DREAM

I sleep everyday in the night,

To dive in the wonderfulness of your site

Your flawless beauty mesmerizes me,

I keep on looking at you with admiration and glee..

Your lips moves uttering sugary words,

Your fragrance makes my heart throb

Your touch makes me tremble inside,

Our kiss made my stomach tide..

All I could think of its just me and you,

You sitting holding my hand,

I cant believe its true.

I woke up in the morning with a happiness blend,

And wished that dream would have never end

child again

 CHILD AGAIN
I wanna be a child again...
I wanna trace the sun through my window pane..
I wanna chase the dogs across my lane..
I wanna lay fearless on the swing,
Stretching up my dream wings..
I wanna laugh again at silly jokes..
That time just poop could make my stomach poke..
I wanna fly kites again..
I wanna dance carelessly in the rain..
I wanna whistle like a train..
Life was so easy back then, there was so pain..
That time words only had one meaning...
Love meant love, never heard of hate..
People didn't seem that fake..
That time fights were just for toys..
Neither for feelings, nor for boys...
I wanna ride my bike,
I wanna race in the fields, in the muddy lawns wherever I like..
I wanna feed the birds nesting on my front gate..
I wanna take pride in never reaching the school late...
That time birthdays only meant lots of gifts...
Having our favorite candy made our hearts lift..
We prayed god for latest barbie doll..
Just not getting an icecream made our tears fall...
I wanna make big soap bubbles...
I wanna break things and get into trouble..
I wanna count the colours in the rainbow..
I wanna get too scared and walk real slow..
I wanna recite a poem in the rhyme..
I wanna play hide and seek a thousand times...
I wanna be that hero in the video game,
Fighting everyone down and getting all the fame..
In the shadow I wanna make animals by my hands..
I wanna live with the fairies in the fairy land...
I wanna get back to the world that is so beautiful, so insane..
I wanna be a child again..